From a Little Girls cries (you supposed to love not hurt me)...To a Woman who's a SURVIVOR (grew and healed learned to let it be)! "My mother's younger brother has passed away..."
My mother's younger brother has passed away and I can't say that it is my saddest of days. My heart is unable to hurt for him and my soul can't feel love for him from within.
You see at a young ripe age he violated me, he took something precious, irreplaceable and life changing.
For years I never knew my self worth what purpose God had for me here on this earth.
Loving
me,
what
a
joke!!!
As an adolescent I gave of myself too freely,
As a teenager I had my first child and suffered abuse from a male who claimed he loved me yet treated me as though
I were an animal in the wild.
As an adult I finally started to mend,
learned to love myself and have a little trust in men.
My mother's younger brother has passed away and I can't say that it is my saddest of days. My heart is unable to hurt for him and my soul can't feel love for him from within.
I love him as a human because it's what God wants me to do
It's hard for me to find love beyond that
due to the pain he put me through.
For years I thought it was my fault
Tried countless times to take my life at all cost.
You see I saw no purpose for living...
In life it's all about taking and giving.
Somethings are better given than took and now when I think back I wonder if he'd done it had he took a second look...
A look into
my eyes
and saw the
disdain
A look into
my eyes
and and felt my
pain
A look into
my soul
and known that
I was dying
A look into
my soul
and heard
my inner crying
A look into
my face
and realize
I was his niece
A look into
my face
and come to grips that
I was not a piece of meat!!!
My mother's younger brother has passed away and I can't say that it is my saddest of days. My heart is unable to hurt for him and my soul can't feel love for him from within.
I've grown so much since those days
I've learned to thank God in countless ways
I've grown to a woman who now loves self completely
I've learned that I am perfectly imperfect... you see that's just
"The Beauty Of Me!"
I've grown to knowing that had I let this situation take control
I wouldn't be...
The Queen God Designed Within Me!
I've learned to not hold on to past hurts and demons they only torment and drain the center of my being...
NOTHING IN THE WORLD IS WORTH SELF HINDERING!!!
Written By: Ta'Nisha
Dedicated To: Mookie (My Inner Child)
Copyright © 2008
Posted By: TaNisha Gray Juisee Da Queen
Wednesday, October 8th 2008 at 7:55AM
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